Being at the crossroads

It's been sometime now since I've done any posting up here and the reasons are plenty. Procrastination being the major reason. Procrastination has been a reason for a lot of our shortcomings, often not allowing ourself to achieve or do what we desire to do. 


A year and a half ago, I left what was a stable environment to set out into the unknown. A hard decision to make, but I made that decision and a couple of opportunities fell in place allowing life to take a turn into what I thought was the right direction. But this stable environment is now once again shaken. Shaken by thoughts of wanting more, wanting to know what's out there, wanting to know if there's more to life... thus bringing me to a crossroad. 


So where do I go? The journey to move forward into the unknown scares the S%^$ out of me, but I don't want to look back 10 years from now and wonder "what if I had taken that road.. where will I be now?" 


We all have dream and ambitions. We don't expect to fulfill our dreams by just sitting there, you need to work for it. Nothing in life comes easy... said generations after generations and I believe it to be true. But does that mean taking risk into the unknown? 


My dreams of travel has been strong. We all love travel and I always wanted to do something meaningful in life... I mean.. I use to read about those to go abroad to help the really poor to build schools, teach english and do good. So I thought... hey.. I love life, I love kids.. why not I put my passion for travel to good use and teach English and do some good. But hey! I"m Asian... it's important to own a car, own a house, be somebody and all that other jazz. Hey! The money has been good, I survived, I own a car and I lived alright.. not complaining. But I'm restless again.. 


So now.. at 33 I'm thinking. At a crossroad to do what's right in the eyes of society and what's right for me.